The Past

Our past should be left in the past, right? Wrong...

Why are some people so unable to let go of their past? What keeps them hanging onto it? Why? 

All of my books are based on my past thus far. I often wonder why it is that I do that? I suppose in life there are some ghosts that we are not able to let go of. The question remains, how do we move past the ghosts and be able to move on? 

My past has felt like it has been a nightmare one issue on top of another. Life just never seemed quite normal. There was always something that kept me down and never been able to move forward. Now, I am not saying that things in my life have never been good I do have some happy memories. One in particular was the time my parents missed my birthday due to a motorcyle event that they went to. They felt bad (mostly because I threw a fit) and took me and my sister to the Mall of America. I had so much fun and got to see a ton of stuff. However, after this I found that things like this continued to happen, which was disheartening, but over the years I was getting used to it. 

I find that in my life now I try not to let anyone feel the way I felt over time. I try to find joy in life and create an atmosphere that helps me along my journey. 

So, I ask you dear readers... how has your past affected you? Do you feel like it helps or hinders your life?